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Self Care

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Self Care

Ok, sorry guys, I know I got off track on my schedule...I'm working on it. 

So art. And life. Yeah. 

Seriously, I am exhausted. But a good kind of exhausted I guess. Sometimes if doesn't feel very good, but I remember that I am tired because I am working so hard on my art and that makes me feel better. However, there is such a thing as working too hard. 

Yesterday I was in Fort Worth for 12.5 hours. About 10 of which was spent in the studio or getting supplies. I did get to set stuff on fire, so that's good. Got a little overheated at one point (not during the fire part, surprisingly); as many of you know I am very heat-sensitive. But I managed. It was a productive day. 

And yet I didn't feel like it at the end. 

That's the problem with a perfectionist mindset. 
You can't ever do anything "right" because you can't do it all in one day. I guess when you struggle with your self-esteem and believing in yourself, you can be pretty hard on yourself in the process of a project. Today, I have decided to rest. Trust me, I planned on doing a lot of hard work today, but that just wasn't going to happen. (I'm surprised I am even up for writing this.) I had to pull my car over in a parking lot after a midmorning appointment today and take a nap because I felt unsafe to drive. That's the amount of tired I'm talking about. 

Sometimes we just desperately need a day off. And I have learned before and am continuing to learn that that is okay. Self-care and self-love is not selfish.
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I am sure that if people genuinely took better care of themselves, we would live in a much happier world. People who take care of themselves are more productive, more joyful, and much nicer. Self-care can involve little things and small acts that tell yourself that you are worth it. I'm not saying go crazy and spend all your money on yourself. Self-care is about being wise and gracious with yourself. If you do something in the name of self-care that will cause you distress later, it doesn't count. Sometimes just giving yourself permission to take a power nap is what you need. 

One of the important things about self-care is that at the end of the day, you can't regret it. Let yourself be loved by yourself. 

As I work towards this wonderful art show, I am having to be nice to myself even when I don't want to be. I want to be that tough boss or teacher that convinces you to run the extra 4 miles at the end of a long day, just so you can accomplish more. And sometimes that may be necessary. But I don't want myself or any of you to be drained and burned out with life. 

Learn to care for yourself. You're worth it.

Ideas for self-care:

Take a bath

Take a nap

Clean your desk/room

Buy yourself a nice cup of coffee and have some chill time

Eat a scoop of ice cream

Paint your nails...or a wall

Clean your sheets for a fresh night's sleep 

Take yourself out to dinner

Buy yourself a new exciting book to read for fun

Watch your favorite TV show

Cook yourself an organic dinner

Have the glass of wine 

Go to a museum and look at beautiful things 

Hold hands with someone (but don't try that with a stranger) 

Get a massage 

Get a pedicure

Journal how you feel and don't judge yourself 

Finger paint 

Play with play dough

Read your favorite children's book. (If you need a suggestion: What do you do with an idea? by: Kobi Yamada)

Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you love yourself and that you are beautiful

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Artistic Inspiration on a Blah Thursday

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Artistic Inspiration on a Blah Thursday

Ok, so I had a weird Wednesday.

By weird, I mean that really good stuff happened and really bad stuff happened. So at the end of the day, I wasn't exactly sure how I should be feeling. All I knew was that I was tired. Exhausted.

The good news was about the art show...things are moving forward in good direction. Some meetings were set and some decisions were made. And hopefully soon, I will have a space to paint and sculpt and create in. That is was the hope is today. It's looking fairly good, but I am still praying.

The bad news... well, apparently I haven't done my work at my day job the way some people want it done and it came back on me. Hard. Especially since it was about my writing, it made it a difficult pill to swallow. And obviously, as medicated as I am, I am used to swallowing pills. This one came with a little more humiliation and embarrassment.  

After so much emotion, by the end of the night, I was very ready for bed.

As for an art update, I have my projects for the art show planned out and scheduled for creation. There are about 25 pieces and then a series of about 100 small drawings that I am working on. It’s definitely a lot of work, but I am excited to do it. Some of the work is already in progress and some of it is still waiting for the supplies to be bought. But I feel good about the schedule that I am on.

To be honest, last week was full of anxiety and yesterday felt like I got the first wave of relief in about 1.5 weeks. Lots of panic attacks were had and late, sleepless nights. I spent a lot of time wondering what I was doing wrong with my life and why I couldn’t just calm down. Some of it, I do not even know why I was struggling with anxiety. I know that part of it was because there was a lot up in the air about the event and I was nervous. But more so, I just didn’t trust that there was a plan. And there is only so much I can do on my own. Taking more time to write and read and create was helpful though. In hindsight, I probably should have done much more of it. But when you are in the middle of anxiety or depression “doing” is the last thing you want to do, whatever it may be.

My therapist gave me some good insight on Tuesday...she said right now is almost a calm before the storm time. And because I am aware that I am about to get very, very busy, I need to make sure that I do the things I want done before the storm hits. So I was like, what do I want to do? The answer: reading, duh. That always gets brushed off when work becomes really busy, but something I miss very much. So my goal is to read quite a few books in the next few weeks or month. What are some of your latest favorite books? To be honest, I probably will not be able to add them to my list, because man, do I have a long list, but I would love to hear about them and have them for future reads. I’m always down to talk about books anyways. You might have noticed that since I’ve reviewed books on my blog. I have made sure to limit it to creative and inspirations books though, but I really do like a wide variety of literature.

So how about it? What are you reading?

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Big Magic

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Big Magic

          Having just finished Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert, I was so inspired that I busted out a painting like it was nothing. Want to learn about how to live creatively? Read her book. She puts into perspective that creative living doesn’t mean abandoning all you know to live on the street as a starving artist. But it also doesn’t come without learning to sacrifice. The reward, though, is worth so much more. Even if your creative living is something seemingly small, as long as you are committed to working at it every week, you can live a creative life and grow consistently.

            In the book, Gilbert addresses a wide audience, explaining the beauty of creative living to all types of people. She shares stories of people living as creatives and expressing who they are as they walk through life everyday.

            Creativity is not about being able to draw the perfect figure or write the perfect lyric. Creativity is about having a problem and being able to invent the tools to solve it. It is having a message that cannot be put into words clearly, so you convey it through an alternative form of communication.

            Gilbert’s message in the book talks about the reward of creative living being that “big magic” that happens in our lives. And until you experience the magic of creativity, no one can accurately describe it to you. It is an experience you can watch people have your entire life and never understand. But to let yourself be taken over by a creative spirit, just once, will embed in you a creative desire, a creative addiction that cries out for more. Except it’s not destructive; it’s additive; it’s creating; it’s growth and development.

            The beauty of the book does not stop at the message because Gilbert’s writing voice and style ad intrigue and wonder to every page.

            Thank you, Elizabeth Gilbert, for saying what the world needs to hear and being a voice for creatives everywhere. This book truly is Big Magic.

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